We wrote a song in the dark.
We drove a stake through her heart.
We ride the wind, we ride the waves.
We are aggression, we are pain.
We wrote a song in the dark.
We drove a stake through her heart.
He is the Lord, we are the listeners.
We will not die without a whisper.
I’ve seen what’s fake, I’ve seen the distraction.
And like a wick there’s no end to my burning.
Don’t let the devil speak.
Don’t let the demons take us.
Watch your back, look over your shoulder.
This war is meant to be fought.
I’ve lost my temper.
And yet there’s forgiveness, there is purity.
Lay waste to golden crowns, find hope in clarity. by the devil wears prada
ME: Nothing I’ve turned my emotions off
Maggie Mcgraw Those aren’t the real ones Josh. The real ones love you No matter how bad you mess up… everyone makes mistakes and has regrets , that’s life you live with them and move on… and you keep the people around you that support you and forgive you even when you make the wrong decisions. Love yah cuz
Josh David Michael Turner Kyrill what you said made a lot of since its just I’ve been like this for 2 now 3 months off and on idk when im getting better?, and skyler thanks but no its not haters, its just ppl change, forgiveness is just a word it means nothing, and well my life just seems to not feel the way I was so anticipating my senior year to be.
Kyrill Ramsey i know right be optimistic about things i know sometimes the whole day feels like crap,but look at it as you just got one of those over and theres bound a good day. Senior year!, you should know that school and home doesnt have the word fun in them. just yolo life and do what your spose to do thts all. Have fun withit.
Theres no way to escape myself I want the old Josh Back the one that loves to be goofy,laugh, and love life and friends and family, Not this imposter! I have a feeling old josh is too too hard to ever find
I was sitting in class, suddenly everything went cold. I Pressed my hand against my desk an icy hand print appeared, I looked beside me everyone was looking at the board no one noticed anything unusual, no one bothered to look up at me, it was if I was invisible to everyone, I pressed a finger to my lips. An Icy surface began forming upon them, I touched my heart. Ice began forming around my whole body an eventually shut down my heart, because my heart turned to ice.
My Soul left my icy abandoned body, I was in a bright white room, there was a stand in front of me, the whole room was white, nothing but white, a figure with a white cloak on, with his face not visible stood on the stand, and he spoke to me
"Hello, My Child it’s not what it would seem to be, but you are here, so…shall we begin?"
I Replied “Excuse me I’m rather confused..how..did I die?”
The Figure Replied again “Your not dead, nor alive”
"I don’t understand"
"You don’t need to"
I pointed at a huge Book. It said on it the book of life.
"I think you can answer that question for yourself, for you already know. What it is, I will open it and let me see if I can find your name"
He opened the book. A Bright Light shown, suddenly my eyes went blind. I woke up lying in a field of grass, loaded with fruit trees all around me with different interesting colors and designs on each tree, I reached up into the tree and took a fruit, I bit down into it, juices and intense flavor flooded my mouth, it reminded me of a delicious apple but sweeter, its texture and color were a resemblance of an orange but the juices in it were as rich as a grape, My senses were enhanced, everything was doubled, the senses I had were of nothing compared to on earth it was almost magical. The Grass had a sweet bitter smell, So I took a handful of it ripped it from the ground, and took it up to my nose and sniffed it more clearly I basically inhaled it, it was rather strong but amazing, nothing you would have ever smelled on earth, for all I know I could have tasted it, and it probably would have a taste. The Air wasn’t normal either, I took a gulp of air, I breathed in a strong gulp of it, it’s almost how when you get a glass of cold water and you drink it and it feels so good going down and it soothes you, but then when the glass is empty your left unsatisfied and still thirsty so you get another glass of it, So I kept taking slow sweet breaths, every time my lungs felt alive like never before. I realized this wasn’t human made nor nature made, I wasn’t sure but I thought I knew where I was at, I saw a bright light coming toward me, I couldn’t move I was startled, suddenly a man wearing a white robe stood and front of me and his hair and beard was as brown as brown gets, and his face and skin was so pure and it reminded me how radiant the sun was, he lifted out both of his hands in front of me I got on my knees and began crying, for Jesus stood in front of me, I knew it was him the holes from the 2 nails that pierced his hands when he died on the cross were in front of me, Jesus was in front of me I was overwhelmed and happy at the same time, I began worshiping Jesus and I got up.
Jesus smiled at me and lifted both hands toward the sky. I looked into the clouds and every happy memory I have ever had from my first kiss, to family outings, from hanging with friends, playing sports and games, to making best friends, to camping and all the adventures and moments, and all the laughs and joy, these memories flashed before my eyes in the clouds, But suddenly Jesus frowned and lifted his hand down, The sky was filling with darkness, and grey clouds, lightning lighted up the sky and it rained, All the sad, depressing, hurtful, bad moments of my life were shown from where I was in pain, from where I was cursing God, from where I was doing wrong, and from where I lost a lot of friends through my life, every nightmare and darkness I experienced was before me, It all brought back so much pain.
I spoke “Why? Why did you let me suffer through all this..why?”
Jesus replied “I was always there with you, things don’t happen the day you wish it, it happens in my fathers time”
"But I’m in so much pain or I was until I came here.."
Jesus: “That’s because this is a little piece of heaven..but you cannot fully enter the kingdom until its time your time”
"What! No please no..please don’t make me go back to earth I hate it here I hate it, everyone hates me, I’m always depressed, in pain and sadness..please I beg of you" (I start crying and crying)
Jesus: “You still have so much to learn and so much to do on earth, Don’t be discouraged you have no reason too? You are everything you should be…you are creative, and loved, everyone doesn’t hate you sure some may be upset with you but they don’t hate you, for those who hate you must surely hate me because you are of my fathers creation, and if you read of my fathers book you surely know the 10 commandments and the book of psalms”
"Yes, but please theres too much pain there, I wanted to die when I was down there, I actually prayed everynight for you to take me of this planet and bring me to your kingdom"
Jesus: “And I told you it’s not your time..you have many to guide, you are a follower of me, and you are a being capable of forgiveness and love even when others don’t forgive you, my dear boy do not hold a grudge for it only stores up hate, if someone wrongs you, return them in forgiveness and kindness do not wrong them back for then both of you would have been capable of evil and thus caused it to get worse”
"But..jesus my life has been ruined you don’t understand"
Jesus: “I don’t understand? My dear boy I know your thoughts,dreams, feelings, and everything you see and feel, I do understand..your the one who does not understand because you are human your not of the world I live in..but you will soon be..one day…do not let the snares of the devil get you off track for satan is after all who follow me and will do anything to cause pain, and loss of friendships, families and relationships and all other earthy things, your life hasn’t been ruined its just been in a rough patch, you need to not worry, for if things were meant to happen they are to happen if people are meant to be in your life they’ll always manage away back in if you are meant to lead then you will lead”
"I just don’t know what to do"
Jesus: “Well one thing you have been doing is listening to other people and only caring what people say to you, shouldn’t you be caring what my father and I say to you, over what other’s say, instead of cursing God, you should be thanking him, instead of showing hate towards your enemies you should be loving them, instead of complaining you should be complimenting”
I look at Jesus in disbelief
He looks at me and smiles and then points towards the sky, its dark now and stars are lighting up the sky and jesus says “Look, Josh look into the sky”
I’m in shock he says my name I reply “Lord, I am sorry for my sins”
Jesus: “It’s ok, remember you are forgiven if you truly ask for forgiveness and mean it”
I look into the sky at first I see me, im holding a book and im happy and All of my friends are around me cheering, and then the picture in the sky changes im holding a video-camera and the paparazzi are shown taking pictures and im smiling, the scene changes again im holding a bible and preaching and I notice some of my close friends from school are out in the audience of the church I’m at, scene changes again I’m at college and a loyal unexpected friend is shown beside me, scenes stop and the sun is shown coming up and the sky lights up so beautifully.
Jesus: “To make thing’s happen you have to work for them, do not worry about current problems that are occurring now, for they are not of importance because they are not permanent you humans always think your mistakes are permanent but in reality, all you need is a break, say you fight with a family member take a break from them, fight with a friend or bestfriend leave them alone and take a break, fight with anyone just appologise, take a break and move on it’s all you can do, you don’t want to stay mad at someone and hold a grudge even if you move on because it will just cause you more pain deep inside..to achieve your dreams you must actually try, listen to no one that tells you you can’t for you can do whatever your mind allows you todo….what would you attempt to do if you knew you would not fail?”
"A lot of things lord, a lot of things"
Jesus: “Exactly! Tell others about me, become a Christian example people want to follow, spread my word, and show others you truly care, apologise for past mistakes and forgive even when people don’t forgive you”
"Lord they won’t listen to me people think I’m crazy or to obsessed or to Christian crazy"
I went back into my body and i smiled, for i knew my life would eventually get better and the one who made me would be with me always! :)